اُر آی اَم آن-فُرگیوِن تو ؟؟

اَه ! تمام روز منتظر یک لحظه باشی... اون لحظه هم اتفاق بیوفته و تو گند بزنی ! :(
کاشکی حداقل واسه ش توضیح می دادم.. دستِ من نبود باور کن. اَه، خراب کردم دیگه... اصلاً به من چه. کاملاً از عهده ی من خارج بود.. نذاشت یه کلمه حرف بزنم که عذر بخوام..
اصلاً امروز از اول صبح پیدا بود.. صبح جلو چشم م یه ماشین زد به یه موتوری، دو نفر بودن؛ یه خانوم و یه آقا.. خانومه پرت شد وسط خیابون و دیگه پا نشد.. دقیقاً لحظه ش رُ دیدم.. تا شاید سی ثانیه یکی از پاهاش بالا بود، نمی دونم چرا.. بعد اون هم افتاد.. فقط دیدم که هنوز زنده ست، اما چه زنده بودنی...
/ اولین چیزی که امروز دیدم.. بعدش هم این جریان..
با این که یک هفته انتظار این روز رُ می کشیدم، اما دوست دارم زمان برگرده و اصلاً من امروز شیراز نمی بودم.. خیلی بد شد. فقط همین. و در مرحله ی بعد؛ به درَک؛ خُب از دستِ من خارج بود. مگه من خواستم؟ پیش اومد.. نمی دونم.. خیلی بد شد. اَه :(

Yak ! it was such a bad night that i can't study or do any other thing..
oh.. w8... i can remember... one year ago, i had seen a dream about my fireld in university.. how it can be true? i can't believe.. right now.. what remind me? waw.. it's true dream.. i can feel it, i can taste it ! it's usual for me but always i can realize when i c the real action (and i can remember that i've seen this view in past)
any way, i just wanted to write in engliosh what i've written above !
it was bad day (night!) i'll never 4get it :(
more than a week i was waiting for one thing.. it happened but i missed it.. and more, i made it bad event.. she even don't let me talk.. she'll never trust on me again, as she didn't !
but it was out of my control. really i couldn't do anything.. i wish she had computer (70% of my life, my speaks, my everything! happen on the internet) .. just i can be hopeful maybe i'll c her again (soon) and i'll explain, and i'll apologize her of course !
it was out of my control.. i wish she understood..
at last, i tried to say what i wanted (and i'll waited, more than a week) and she thought it's about that event. so, she didn't let me to talk :(
// sorry my visitor! it's not a post for u, it's just for myself.. but i don't like u missunderstand, so i'll add that she has 2x of my ages! she's as my mother.. don't think every "she" should be a close friend...
but i wish it hadn't hapen..
how can i study now? it's 11:50 P.M. and i have a quiz for tomorrow.. there's final and midterm on following days.. just i hope to pass this week good